I worry about this (not just with T's, with everyone!) My marriage counselor recently was clarifying that he'd never been angry/annoyed by anything I (or H) had done, even a 3 am text I sent him last month that I still feel bad about. And I keep apologizing to my T for sending too many e-mails, but she says it's fine.

Though I think I may have been annoying her yesterday because I kept talking to her as I was walking out the door, and she was finally just like, "Bye!" But I know she meant it in a kind way!

Another thing that came up with T yesterday is my recurring fear that she and/or MC are trying to push me away. And she asked me where that came from, saying we needed to address that more. I know it's from stuff with my parents. Someone above mentioned transference--I have some maternal/paternal transference for both T and MC (much more strongly for MC though), so I'm sure that plays a role. But I also fear anyone pushing me away, not just them.