. I'm very very down and fed up today. Well, more than fed up. I've been really abusing the laxatives lately and suffering some horrible dreadful very painful side effects, basically have to wear babies nappies if I go out, sometimes to scared to go out in case I have an "accident" and the heamorides are killing me!! How can I tell anyone about this, though there are two older people I know who've had them cut out, though not because of ED's, it happens to many folk. Tonight when I tried to down the laxatives I gagged and vomited many times, as if my body was absolutely refusing to have this kind of poison put into it anymore. I have a different brand of lax which is easy to swallow so I had them instead, problem with these different ones is they take many more hours to work so I can't go out all day!! It's almost like an OCD that I just HAVE to take lax to rid my body of what little does go into it. I'm so veRy depressed and sick of this regime but I've been doing it on and of f for over 30 years. Love to you all. Xxxxx