I've been plagued with a plethora of conflicting thoughts and needs for awhile now, and I want to move forward, but I don't know what to do:

(A quick background about me: I'm a recent grad, currently job-searching, and live in a city. I have no interests and have low self-esteem. Great intro, yeah? *sarcasm in that last bit*)

-I want to be worthwhile, but I feel like I'm worthless because I haven't done anything useful, but I don't have the skill to do anything worthwhile, nor do I know what it is I want to do
-I want to be someone that people can lean on and laugh with, but I'm too reserved to be open like that. (I'm also not really socially equipped either since I don't really follow any trends or industries)
-I want to be successful (financially and career-wise), but I'm also unfortunately really lazy and just want to hole up in my room and watch anime/ read fanfiction all day
-I want to have many practical skills (e.g. be artistic, be able to create stuff, be physically skilled) but I'm too easily distracted or give up quickly for it to get anywhere

I guess my short-term goal is to get a (somewhat decent) job to get by, but then what? I don't know what I want to do in life, and I'm in an endless cycle of wanting to do something but not knowing what to do, so then I just want to enjoy myself but don't let myself do that because I want to do something more useful. And rinse and repeat. I feel like if I have an interest or passion, it'd help guide me, but I don't feel much for anything, so I'm not sure what to do.

Sorry if it's a confusing post, but I'm super confused too so....any advice is appreciated..?