T was amazing again today. I wish I could see here more often that once every 2 weeks. I guess I could just ask like a big girl, huh?
She was able to somehow make me feel comfortable, just enough, so I could actually say the words in front of her. "yes, I would feel sad if I had to say good-bye to you right now". By "good-bye" we meant forever kind of good bye, as in never see you again. I had emailed her earlier in the week about some emotions that had popped up regarding previous T (who passed away last March) and my attachment issues. I then alluded to my "newly" recognized attachment to new T.
I told her that I felt like I was 6 yrs old again and wanted to go hide in shame. She said "We need to show that little girl some compassion and take care of her! She doesn't need to hide." I was so comforted by her words and tone. It was so amazingly helpful. Then she told me she new how hard it was for me to say those words out loud. It was, but now I know it was worth it.