This isn´t a question to snoop into anyone´s life. I haven´t had sex with anybody and I´m 30+ years old. When getting to think of it, like when I sit at home watching a film or whatever, it makes me feel very ill at ease and I feel a lot of anxiety around this.

It´s not that I wish I would want to just go out and find someone random to have sex with but at the same time I feel like a teenager who never became an adult in this respect. I know I´m not the only one of course but still, it feels so far-fetched and so odd not having had sex. It´s like not belonging completely, it´s a sorrow.

Therefore I now wonder - how did your first time having sex with somebody change you? Or did it change you or your thoughts? I now think of sex you choosed to have, not being forced.