i have been struggling with anxiety and obsessive worry for some time now, some days are more of s struggle than others. I had a part time (3.5 hours daily) teaching assistant job, that over the last few years I was increasingly unhappy at. I wanted to quit many times, but the fear of letting down my staff kept me from doing it. The last two weeks have been a real emotional roller coaster for me, I can't really pinpoint why, I think it's the culmination of a very stressful few years of personal and work issues. I was out of work for 3 days with a legitimate illness, and returned this Wednesday, As soon as I walked through the door, I was gripped by a panic attack so severe I thought I would stop breathing. I called my supervisor over, burst into tears, and told her I needed to resign immediately. I could not give a specific reason why I had to leave, but by my behavior it was pretty obvious I had lost it. She and the rest of the staff were empathetic, I packed up my few belongings, and left a job I've had for 12 years. I thought I would feel this incredible sense of relief at leaving a job I honestly hated, but 2 days later all I feel is incredible guilt about how I left, and for causing worry to my co workers. I have never really acted in such an irrational way before, I just emotionally popped. I'm afraid to leave my house for fear of running into one of them, or trying to explain why I did what I did, I'm still trying to process it. All I know is right now, i wish 1. I could go back and do it over it a more professional manner. Or 2. Disappear until the fall out is over. I wish I was a stronger, less cowardly person. I don't expect any help, honestly it just feels good to get this out. Thank you for taking the time to read.