Oh bw321, I'm sooo sorry no one has responded yet! I haven't seen your post before today. I am very sad to hear you have been struggling so much and I really hope you managed to stay as safe as possible.

Thank you for posting here and having the courage to share.
To my mind, as you are a human being, you are as valuable as anyone else on this earth, you are just coping with a lot at the moment.

Be kind to yourself as much as you can, you DESERVE it.

❤️