For the past year, I've experienced worsening brain fog and dissociation. Right now as I'm typing this, I feel a warm lump in the pit of my stomach that spreads to my throat accompanied by nausea. This has been going on for 4 days straight and I haven't been eating. My face feels hot and I'm shaking. This is uncontrollable and with no known cause.As for the brain fog, I feel very unreal, and not in my own mind. As if I were really drunk but without the slurred speech. I find it very hard to express my emotions to my friends. I have one friend, my only friend here in college, find a new group of friends to hang out with and now he doesn't talk to me as much. He doesn't want to hang out with just me anymore and i'm so upset that he's distancing himself. I feel worthless and pathetic and not good enough. I know he's going to leave entirely very soon and we won't have any contact with each other anymore cause that always seems to happen. I wish I knew how to make people stay. I think this is whats causing my recent symptoms (they've always been there, just not as bad). I can't even explain to the internet. I hate this..