I'm in the thick of doing shadow work again. It is not fun. I told t yesterday that it is not fun. And she said, it's a different kind of fun. I disagreed with her yesterday, but today as I was starting my t homework, I thought hmm. I guess she's right it must be a "different kind of fun" because I keep doing it, don't I? I never knew there was a kind of fun that wasn't fun but is still fun. I think perhaps I am just a mess.