I've never been attracted to anyone before, romantically or sexually, but a part of me wants to be in a relationship, or at least to have someone to be close with and feel comfortable with. However, I think a part of me is also afraid of it, but I'm not sure of what.

I'm not really social, so that may have negatively affected my interest in relationships. But I've met a couple people through online dating sites who have expressed interest in me (we've met several times offline and are on friendly terms), but even something as simple as a kiss or holding hands discomforts me. I don't know why, since both those actions seem very common and not very intimate.

Anyone have any ideas of why a person may be afraid of intimacy? I haven't been abused in the past or anything, nor have I been told not to get into relationships. I never really thought about it until later in high school, and even then it wasn't something I pursued.