I feel like a fraud and a lier - I really struggle to believe the flashbacks actually happened, they just don't feel real. So many memories are recovered- I feel that invalidates them. But the effects are very real, and theres building evidence externally that it did happen. Im beginning to think it did all happen- but dissociation is what makes it feel unreal. I struggle to believe any and all of it. And yet I do. Its very confusing.