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Originally Posted by Angelique67
Hi, I'm so sorry for your loss. It sounds just desolate for you without your mom. I've lost loved ones and it feels like it will just never get normal again, and it doesn't really. It gets different, as you know.
I also struggle with self care. I can't maintain a consistent schedule at all, I have agoraphobia, and I struggle with showering at times and my place is a cluttered mess. I wish I could be more helpful than this, but does it help if you hear your mom's voice in your mind urging you to do the things for yourself that she used to encourage you to do? Can you internalize her card and love? These are just things to maybe try if you haven't already. Believe me I know how hard it is. I wish I could be of real help.  |
That is a helpful suggestion. I think I was initially keeping the house up due to magical thinking, as though she'd return...
Once it really sunk in that she wouldn't return, I hit the worst, most soul crushing depression I have ever experienced in my entire life. She was my world. Everything in my life revolved around her and my daughter of course.
Now I try to focus on my daughter, because I know she needs me now more than ever since my mother was my co parent. My daughter's father is only occasionally involved and often does more harm than good.
I think that the idea of listening to what she would have said if she were here is probably an excellent idea. I will try it. I have been trying it here and there, and I walk the dog more often now.
My friend, her dog, my dog, and my daughter all go on regular trips together. We try to have regular fun together, and build memories together and just generally try to enjoy ourselves and our lives.
Thank you so much for your compassion, your understanding, your lack of judgement, your nice words, and your advice. ❤
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