I'm glad you are still here........because you have a chance to get better and to have a better life. I tried to kill myself last month, and my (now ex) boyfriend didn't care either...he basically messed me up a lot........I'm really trying to just surround myself with anyone who is positive and only wants the best for me. I suggest you try to do the same. I know it can be hard to let a person go, when you have relied on them in some way.........but if someone is causing you more pain than happiness, it's time to move on.