Hi all,

It's been a while since I've logged on and posted on here so I thought now would be an appropriate time!
I'll try to keep it short.

I was initially diagnosed with depression at an early age then Bipolar 2, Anxiety, PTSD, and ADHD.
Been through many pdocs, meds, etc.

Even though I'm studying Psychology and was taught everything about it I was letting my mood swings and anxiety run my life.
I was constantly overly emotional, self defecating, self pity, self sabotaging with relationships, goals, etc.

On March 2014 my whole world turned when I got sick. I started to notice a flood of neuro (including cognitive) symptoms. It took over 2 weeks and 4-5 ER visits for a Neurologist to take an MRI which showed lesions in my brain and spinal cord.

I was told I most likely have MS but they want to keep me under observation. While being stuck in the hospital for approx. 14 days my hemiparesis got bad to the point I couldn't walk without a walker (this was very embarrassing for me because I was so active and athletic before), I wasn't allowed to use the restroom without a CNA with me at all times, call off work, and I had to give up taking a course in school I'd been dying to attend.
I also suffered from a bunch of cognitive dysfunctions: aphasia, behavioral changes, memory issues, apathy, pseudo bulbar affect, catatonia, etc.

After doses of steroids at the hospital I went home to recover. I felt like my life was over and told my parents I won't be living the rest of my life this way.

I had brief episodes of explosive anger without knowing why that I would forget shortly after. It took a while and countless times of falling but I managed to get myself walking without using a walker (too much pride).

Even though I felt like my life was over this condition caused me to be so simple minded that I got to experience what inner peace and happiness feels like.

I used to think my life was the worst and that it couldn't get any worse so I decided to view this as a silver lining and think positively in everything I do.

I still suffer from memory loss and it makes a lot of things difficult, balance, tinnitus, left side numbness. Ive had about 6-7 MRIs with no diagnosis.

My anxiety and mood swings have returned recently and I'm trying everything to manage them to remain positive and happy.

I also just realized that I don't really have a reliable support group for when I need to talk to someone who understands and can empathize...

Trying to stay positive though!!