I know what u mean....I am currently working on starting to deal with my feelings...something that I have learned over the years to put aside. My T says that I have to confront the things in my childhood before I can move on in my adulthood...not that anyone should live in the past...just that things should be resolved. I am not sure that I want to go there...but we all have things that we have to do....I think we all look in the wrong places trying to find something to fill the void...even though we don't know what the void consists of....sorry bout the death of your son...don't know how long ago it happened but i am sure it makes all of the bp harder to handle. We are all here for you and will be here anytime you need us...

Remember there is some blue skies somewhere in all this black craziness we live in.