Hi!

I just wrote this text about my childhood pain and how I'm feeling at present:

It was awful. Just absolutely awful!

I was SO alone.. I had NO one. How can somebody BE so alone..

I'd like to make friends! I don't want to be alone anymore!

But am I good enough.. If I'm not good enough as I am, then I won't bother. I'm not going to change myself for ANYbody anymore!

This is how I'm able to live with myself If I don't change myself for anybody..

I'd like to get other people's take on this.. Any thoughts, feelings?

Having to adapt to other people's demands has always been a big issue for me. Now, as an adult, I'm finding it makes dealing with authorities such as teachers and employers difficult. Is it unrealistic to think you can go through life purely as yourself, or is there always some adapting you have to do? How do you not lose your 'true self' in the process?