<font color="#000088">I'm sorry your having such a rough time right now. I don't like it when the neighbors complain about little things that really aren't that big of a problem either. Usually it really means they just don't have anything better to do. Annoying neighbors really can put a damper on your mood sometimes can't they? But don't let them decide your fate, just because they have nothing better to do than complain about the dumb %#@&#! that really doesn't matter in life! Your life is more important than their Flowers, they'll grow back! It's almost winter anyway, and their flowers are going to die soon anyway, so they shouldn't be so worried about them. Take care of you first, and watch those scratches, those thorns can get infected easy. I know a lot of people have a hard time with the seasonal depression, but don't let it get you down too much. You have friends that care deeply for you, I don't know about your family situation, but why does the Winter scare you, other than just a Holiday thing? Is it the weather, the snow and ice? If it is, there are solutions for that. If it's just the winter weather that really scares you each year! Let me know if you want some advice on that, if that is what scares you, and I'll help you with that. Personally, I think you would be a great counselor, you have more personal experience with others with illnesses, that you would be a much more understanding counselor that would be able to empathize with your patients, than someone that just stepped out of a classroom, and learned all they know from books, without the personal contacts,and connections that you have made over the years! I'd trust that you'ld be great at counseling! Don't give up! You're too good for that!
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