Last year, a friend of mine needed psychological help. She knew I was in therapy, and she knew I was very content with my T. I don't recall if I referred her or if she asked if it was okay for her to see him. I was okay with it at that moment. Later on, when she actually went to see him, and a few times more, it bothered me a little. I'm not sure exactly why. Maybe it was jealousy, maybe it's because it's a private thing.

Her issues were very different from mine, she has seen him only a couple of times, while I've been in therapy for almost two years. I've established a different, closer bond with my T then my friend has with him. And I can't help but feeling good about that sometimes. Like he loves me more or something. A very childish, primal reaction. I got that also when my friend went to see my T again after my therapy had ended. I was still grieving losing him and I felt so jealous that she could see him and I couldn't.

I accepted feeling jealous and all, I know it's only my child part that feels that way. Grown up me is okay with it. My friend deserves a good T too, and she's doing fine now because of my T. I've told my friend some of my feelings, not all. She doesn't need to know.