Thanks, everyone. As you predicted, T emailed back that she's not angry and she's glad I saw her show. I still feel weird about it. I emailed back because she also said: See you next week! I saw her Friday and she knows I'm going away next week!! She's never made a mistake like that!!! So, I emailed some comments about her paintings. I feel like I've seen a different side of her that I wasn't supposed to see. I'm not sure she's totally okay with my seeing them. Just a hunch I have. I'm also jealous of her work because it's abstract and I can only paint what I see! So I have stuff to talk with her about my reactions.

Thank you for asking, Rive. I'm not sure how I'm doing yet because I've been with family for a few weeks and it's been distracting. I have many forms to fill out that I don't understand at all, but they will sit another week. I'm overwhelmed and sad, lonely, also angry, and my T says all my feelings are normal. I don't like being alone but I have to get used to it. So much of my H's stuff is here, and so much to go through. He was kind of a hoarder. It will take time for me to accept he's gone for real.