I'm sorry Hun, hang on there, the calming effects of your self medication has worn off, like your mind is going from 0 to 60 in a second plus your your body is in a state of ill health. You just flat don't feel good and thinking is not a good thing. Have you tried a little wine or Nyquil?

Can you get a tranquilizer, like buspar (a light one) From a pdoc or GP?

Please take care of yourself, keep busy, and if you can...quit thinking! Sometimes I try to stare at the tv like a mindless zombie, staying out of my head. The bipolar meds help slow down the thinking. If it gets bad I'll take an anti-psychotic.

You will get better soon.