Hello hello,
I feel the need to post a lot lately, because I am feeling a bit overwhelmed. I am having personal and work-related troubles and worries that I am trying to take one at a time, and I know that staying calm is always a good idea. Namaste and all.
BUT then I have these moments (during the day, often at night) when EVERYTHING comes pouring down on me. Everything is too much. Every sound hurts my ears, every quick movement irritates me, every unthoughtful thing a friend says or does hurts like hell. Every problem seems unfixable, my stomach feels like it is tied in knots, I realize how I am holding my breath and my back HURTS like I have been carrying a bag of stones for a week. My head is completely empty and I don't knwo what to say in a conversation anymore.
I have always been sensitive, but right now I feel like it is a heavy burden and I can't seem to find a way to balance my emotions and thoughts anymore. I am currently doubting everything about my life and myself and this is driving me crazy.
I know noone who knows these feelings and feel like a total freak, everyone of my friends is so stable and under control, and absolutely noone seems to be so sensitive. My T says that this can be a good thing, that it makes it possible to live an intense life, but I am actually kinda cursing mother nature for making my skin so thin.
I would so love to find something that eases me and calms me down when I am being crushed by events or thoughts. Inspirations, anyone?