Oh sweetie, Thank you. And sorry! I didn't mean to worry you. I probably said that all wrong. But everything you've said is validating too. He really confuses me. He always has done. I even put him down on a list of things to talk to my T about!

I cannot stress enough how good he has been to me. He really has done so much free work, and the things he's charged for have been half price. He tells me he see's me as being a friend. He's said a couple of times I remind him of his sister. He has even offered me work as he knows I have financial issues. Today, he left £20 on my table for me to get some weed with - he didn't tell me he'd done that till after the kiss as he was leaving. I was so embarrassed.

But I have always felt like he was grooming me. But then I think Im being melodramatic, and he's just a nice person, being good to me, and Im not used to that and so reacting badly. I do not feel safe around him, but I am now in the position where I owe him quite a lot of money and favours and I can't afford to throw away the offer of free help with the lock, and he has been so good to me. Im very confused. I hate that he kissed me. URGH. Why today? I can't deal with this today.

P.s.
I have a cold sore at the moment. Its not obvious, so he probably didn't see it