thank you everyone for your support. i'm still not feeling good about myself, though i am trying. it's just hard because i feel like i have a million and one reasons to dislike myself. as many of us know, self-hate is all-consuming.

and as if to remind me of my natural inferiority
which reminds me of how i'd rather not live in this body (again, not trans, just hate being female). i think being born female was one of the worst things to happen to me.

so i'm hurting physically and struggling today.

than you all.