I can't seem to shake out of this feeling of depression and tiredness. It's not severe depression, but it's enough to make me leave the library. The only thing that seems to shake it is truthfully alcohol. It feels like something is simmering in my head and that there is a weight of depression within my skull. I do have a low dosage of Effexor but any more than that and I lose my muse and all art and beauty loses its charms.

I've tried hot cocoa, energy drinks, of course breakfast and a healthy lunch, I take a good omega 3, I have plenty of protein and I mostly drink sparkling water. I have a 10 minute exercise session every morning. I've tried switching my anti depression in the morning and at night and that doesn't work. I'm starting to get really frustrated. Ill see my PDoc later in the month.

I feel like there isn't much hope. If this is the best case scenario then at least I'm stable, can write, and do all the things I want. I just have to push myself hard. I never had depression around noon time before I was bipolar.

Earlier in the week I felt awesome. I had excellent focus and an abundant amount of energy. I tried repeating the routine that I had that day and my body wasn't having it.

Okay there is my little diatribe.