Thanks, Justice...
You're so sweet to respond to this thread, as I realize it's really trivial...I mean...there are people here with real problems, and this was just a whine!
I've thought a lot about what I'm really going thru, and I think it's an attitude adjustment due to age (56), to no longer feeling attractive or having the desire to be attractive, to my long history, and to realizing I'm too lazy to put forth the effort! Dating and getting to know someone requires a lot of energy (at least from me!), and it hasn't paid off in the past though i plunged into it with my all.
I don't even feel motivated to have a male social friend, and, quite frankly, doubt there are many such men out there. The last fella I let visit me here at my home was an old high school friend (we had even had a folk music band together), recently divorced. He let me know up front that he was "ready to sew his oats, and we could have a "lot of fun" having sex! I was SO disappointed. I liked him as friend, and felt we had much in common....Needless to say, he has not visited me again, since I made it clear I was not interested in his agenda.
I want to admit here also, that being a teacher, not going out to bars or church, I am not in a position to meet men, and actually wouldn't much want to meet men in either of those venues...no barflies or churchy guys! So, since my divorce, I"ve relied on meeting men thru singles' sites such as Match.com....From these experiences...over a period of 11 years, I now liken this to throwing a hook into the ocean and pulling out who knows what kind of monster!
So...now I don't feel so lonely.
Thanks and loving thoughts!
Patty