I understand your feeling of "knowing something you maybe weren't supposed to know". My T published a book, as I've said before, a memoir of her very untraditional childhood. It was very strange to see my T in that light.... putting herself out there like that, reading about her as a vulnerable child, but I had more respect for her after having read her book. She did ask me how I felt after reading it, and we talked about it.... I'm glad I read it. Helped me see her more as a normal person than somewhat of an "authority figure."