I just started EMDR for CPTSD, childhood trauma. I really like the therapist who does it, but it scares me. She said that anything can come up, quite possibly odd things I don't understand. This makes me very uncomfortable. I am not sure I can continue with this. I need to know more about it.

I will be 75 next month. My life has been very difficult. I feel much worse since my first session which was yesterday. I don't want or need more bad stuff coming into my memory because I feel that I've had enough. The T told me that I'd have a lot of bad stuff come up. Don't want that, don't need that. Been there, done that re the bad stuff.

I am a survivor of emotionally neglectful and emotionally abusive parents who were also extreme workaholic parents. That in itself was horrible but it seems that perhaps something awful happened to me which, when I begin to think of it, makes me stutter very badly and I've never, ever stuttered in my life! I do not know what causes this. All I can come up with is that I was very scared, terrified and that I realized I had no control over anything in my life then. Well, of course not, I was a kid.

I am near the end of my life and I want to try to have some quality time for what is left of my life to live. My regular therapist is good and is helping me with this. I am scared of EMDR. I don't even know if I have expressed my feelings correctly here... I was told that I had started 'processing.' Well, if that is so, I don't like it.

I know that if I am too uncomfortable, I will stop the EMDR. I think I need to know more. I have heard of people getting 'stuck' and continuing to relive the bad memories over and over and over again, endlessly. No thank you. But I think I've got to get rid of the stuttering! Can anyone relate or help?