So today I took the Sanity Score test and a depression screening test and got the lowest (i.e: healthiest) score I've ever got in the 3 years I've been using them. And it's true: I don't think I could claim to be 'sick' right now. I've only thrown up twice in the last 2 months (it used to be every meal), I don't have too much trouble sleeping at night and only maybe once a week do I sleep in the day (but I've moved countries recently so I think it's probably normal!). I'm not really happy but I'm quite stable. I'm not the person I was before I got sick but I'm a relatively functional person anyhow.
I've been on my meds for about 2 years now, and I think they really helped with the vomiting and physical pain I used to have. But I'm not sure if maybe they've been dulling my emotions etc. I wondered if now I've learned some coping strategies it might benefit me to come off them? To start living rather than surviving. I take Venlafaxine 225mg and it's hard to say if they do in fact dull emotions as depression has always done that to me too, but now I don't think I'm depressed so perhaps they do.
I know it's perhaps not the best time, as my life is changing a lot and I have no support in this country, I just thought it might be time to start considering it, to be prepared.To know if it might be the key to feeling myself again - perhaps coming off would make me worse again and the meds aren't affecting me negatively anyway. Perhaps there is something else I need to change - for the first time the sanity score test only indicated one 'major problem' : 'technology issues'! So maybe I just need to spend less time on the internet...
idk, any ideas?