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awe....no judging!!! no one judges here!!!!
i'm sorry you're going through such a rough experience.
i can't say i've been through the same...in fact i've never had sex....but i do self injure...we all have our issue here!!
have you been to a therapist? seeing a T might help you figure some of this out.....
does your fiance know about all this?
keep posting here and reaching out...i'm sure you'll find some folks who are in the same boat
feel free to send me a private message if you need someone to talk to
take care!!!