I was wondering how do you relate with music when you are depressed or suicidal?

For me, music doesnt exist. It is like I loose the ability to feel rhythm. When it first happened I thought that was the cruelest thing that could happen to a human in a depression- the inability to relate with music.

I want to sing in the shower and dance in the rain, but, alas, I just shuffle with no music in my soul. Almost makes you hate God. I have been like this for good minute and I wonder if I will ever get my mojo back.