Thanks for sharing. May I ask how old you are? To me itīs more "normal" to never have had a partner when youīre in your 20s but not in my age, Iīm 30+. I feel itīs very unnormal but at the same time it has to do with my childhood, being left out, not having that many friends and things just went by.
Itīs not just "go out on a date" because this issue is something I would have to deal with within therapy but I donīt have a T.
What does your T say about your suicide thoughts? Itīs at least a bit better to have someone to talk to than having nobody.
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Originally Posted by Chummy
This is me too. I have no friends, never had a relationship, I've never been close to anyone. I'm unemployed and I know I won't ever be happy if I would need to work in a local store or something (nothing wrong with that, but it wouldn't make me happy).
I do have therapy and my current T is a good T, but before her I had many not so good T's, some even made me worse.
I don't have the energy for anything, I don't have motivation or hope.
All I want is to be dead. I often think about ending it . But I'm afraid to do it.
I can't offer you advice or anything. I can't even help myself. The only thing I can do is to continue going to therapy.
Maybe if you can afford to go to therepy again, you could give it another try? I know there are many bad T's, but there are also good T's who can help you. Only they are really hard to find. Or maybe a self-help book can help you a bit?
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