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Old Oct 11, 2015, 06:44 PM
SarahSweden SarahSweden is offline
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Thanks for sharing. Yes, I understand what you mean about not click with a T. Was it something specific that didnīt feel right?

For me it has to do with me missing my former T and that I had to choose T:s with a lower fee and I never got any trust in them because they werenīt that educated. A lot of other things affected the process as well.

Did you ever try psychodynamic therapy? Me personally would never choose CBT but thatīs of course a personal choice, I donīt mean itīs something wrong with it. But I prefer getting insights and getting a close and healing relationship with a T before getting "homework" and exercises as are more frequent within CBT.

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Originally Posted by OneInBillions View Post
I'm almost 31... so yeah. I think therapy could work, but I'd need to find a therapist that I really jive with -- I've seen 4 so far but none worked out. Most of them were nice enough but didn't really click, you know? I tried CBT but I think I've lived with negative thought patterns for so long that my mind is really resistant to change or something. I just can't make myself believe it, no matter how much I tell myself positive things.

But therapy is so expensive! Without a job I couldn't continue spending $120 or so every week. The problem is I'm having a really hard time finding a job because I especially hate feeling judged, and interviews are the WORST. Besides I don't have much job experience and with all my obvious flaws... I don't think I stand much of a chance in today's competitive job market.

I know what you mean about waste. I feel like I've wasted much of my life just being useless. I feel like it's a waste for my parents to keep supporting me. But I do what I can for them like running errands, cooking and cleaning and they say they're thankful. I've gotten pretty decent at cooking these past two years. It doesn't feel like enough, though. But then I was brought up in an environment where I felt I could never be good enough.