Started the SSDI process. Now what am I gonna do for 6-18 months going through the processes?? I'm currently dependent on my spouse who makes 900 a month after taxes. We are struggling. It's hard to imagine waiting so long for relief. I'm currently in a vocational rehabilitation program but we are having issues due to anxiety and delusions. My team and I are still working out the kinks in my meds. I'm not even allowed to drive on my meds! It's a **** situation and I'm feeling really intense fight or flight feelings. I can run through walls right now I swear! Food stamps help a little with 80$ a month. The only people I can turn to for financial help are my parents, one who is disabled and poor, the other who is cloud deep in debt and can't even spare a dime! Anybody else been here before?! I can't stop obsessing about it!! I'm feeling pressured, backed into a corner. Bad things ALWAYS happen when I feel like this. I used to turn to drugs and alcohol and online affairs but I can't mess with any of those as part of my rehabilitation!!

UGH