Hey Everyone,

I have recurring depression and anxiety. Lately it mostly shows up as anxiety. I'm trying to drink less coffee- I had none today- but still feel anxious. Tense muscles, too.

It creeps up on me. I've had problems at work lately but I think the root of my problems is deeper, because I've been depressed off and on since I was a teen. I come from an adverse family situation and maybe haven't dealt with all the feelings surrounding it. I've asked my doctor to connect me to a therapist or to group therapy.

I hate the stigma attached. I hate when my friends say I'm 'on edge', even though I am aware of my anxiety. Most people can't tell. I guess I still try to hide my emotions and do a fairly good job of it.

I'm in one of those loops where I can't see myself feeling totally better in the near future. Ugh

I am weary of trying an antidepressant because I've had problems with them in the past. I do exercise and I have a boyfriend whom I'm close to and one or two other close friends but mostly casual, non-close, relationships.