The short answer is no im not working atm. I was working as a lecturer until i had a major episode which unfortunately involved several then current and previous supervisors. they kept me on purely as a researcher which was kind to be honest but that also fueled my delusions because not excluding me reinforced and validated the delusions. within the next two to three years i became unmanageable and I talked my way out of everyone's grace.

I continued to research independently for several years but thats mostly ground to a halt now. I know i cant work in academia any more but i still hope to finish off a few projects. so the desire is still there i just dont know whether its the illness or the meds that are stopping me from progressing things. i certainly have trouble reading and comprehending and sometimes its just too depressing to try to work only to be reminded how dumb ive become.

Regardless im still really thankful for my time in academia and all those years when things were going right. gaining an education radically changed me as a person and most of that i still retain.