I have an unusual issue. I have very low self-esteem,and am uncomfortable in all social situations. This sounds like social anxiety, but the weird thing is that I never exhibit physiologically signs of anxiety - I'm very calm and relaxed around other people.

However, I literally cannot think of what to say to others. I can do the basic small talk thing, but after that, my mind is totally blank. When I do think of what to say, I can only articulate a few words or a sentence at most. This is detrimental to all of my relationships, which in turn, makes me very depressed.

In high school, I had a good group of friends. We were all academically focused but we had fun too. Once I got to college, I was nervous to branch out and so I didn't venture outside of my close friendship with my roommate. I had very few friends during my freshman year because I struggled to make connections with people. I have continued to struggle with this issue for the entirety of college.

I'm having a really hard time concentrating in school right now because all I can think about is this deficit in social skills. I know I can ask people questions about themselves, but I also need to contribute myself. However, I can never come up with any stories to tell from my day to day life.

It also feels like I have a terrible memory, because my mind is always really empty. I've gotten good grades in school for a while, but as far as general knowledge - it feels like nothing's there! I'm thinking that's partially because of the depression I feel, but I know that the depression is caused by feeling alone, which I can't really solve. Vicious cycle. I am involved in clubs on campus so it isn't like I don't have the opportunity to talk to people. I try my best but every time I simply have little to contribute. I don't want my life to end up this way because I am constantly sad about this and it's no way to live.