I've taken the decision to never tell my boyfriend about my borderline personality or as my physician said "borderline traits" as she didn't want to put labels yet.
I'm scared that if I tell my boyfriend and we have a fight, he will blame everything on my borderline.
But I also suffer a lot when we fight, even about very stupid things. In my head, I think he will leave me and then I need to do things that are bad for myself to relieve the pain and the fear. I have immense fear of being abandoned (again) and I think that him knowing that I have borderline will only make him want to leave me. I depend on him, not financially but emotionally.
But I don't know if I should just hide it from him or not..