Uhm, I hope it is going well! I think talking on cam would be a good step before meeting on person, it is like baby steps while a long-distance meet up does feel a lot more pressure.

I just wanted to say, it is tough to try and walk that line between really caring about someone and wanting it to work out and like... Knowing realistically that things do not always go as planned and "I should prepare for the worst." It feels safer to keep saying "I'll probably end up alone" and similar things I saw you mention before, because actually hoping for something feels dangerous. But I think as you talk longer, you should let yourself think more about it working out.

Sometimes we make our own self-fulfilling prophecies, and it helps to have a positive one! But I totally understand being guarded at first. I just noticed some of the words you chose to describe, is all.