still
:-)
saw him today (friday)
and he said he had a cancellation for monday morning if i would like to come in then
:-)
three more sleeps to therapy
:-)

he is being really great.
very gentle, still.
i do a good enough job of beating myself up so its nice that he refrains.
:-)
i kind of have gotten involved with someone.
talked about that last week.
lots of things were triggering for me
got a bit caught between past trauma
and good present
didn't know if things were okay or not okay
feeling better today
past %#@&#!
all my past %#@&#!

15 years age difference.
i said to t 'its too much, huh'
he was like 'er... i don't really think that i should say either way'
i wonder how much younger his wife is
lol
but he seems happy that i'm getting in touch with my human needs / desires
for affection
for comfort
for closeness
for companionship
he seems really stoked about that
and happy to be dealing with the things that are coming up / getting in the way for me, i guess.

he leaves soon (not t - other guy)
that will be kinda hard
i'll miss him
just trying to enjoy the present, though
get some practice enjoying the present
getting some nice experiences of a guy who is sensitive and respectful
remember that
remember that

i'm kinda happy

:-)