He said he is feeling pretty sure it's over. Basically he just got bored of me. He said I was perfect, and not to let if affect my self-esteem, because he said he knows I'm insecure. It's not like I have a choice about what hurts my self-esteem. It's pretty hard to feel good about myself when i'm told that the person who has been saying he loves me is now bored and indifferent. And he really wants me to take the ring, and keep it, as a present. What am I supposed to do with a gold and sapphire ring? That's not the kind of thing i can just wear casually. And I don't want to melt it down. So it can just sit in the box with my former wedding band and engagement ring, as reminders of people saying they love me and then leaving me behind. I feel so pathetic right now. It's early here, and i'm lying in bed crying and typing this on my phone. He's still asleep beside me. I keep hoping he is going to roll over and hug me, and say it's ok. But he won't. And even if he did, I couldn't believe it at this point. I was really genuinely happy for a few months, it was so great. I felt so secure. At least I got a taste of that I guess, but that feeling is gone now. I just wish i was still asleep. Lying here listening to the rain falling, with him asleep beside me is excruciating, but no energy to get up and do anything.