I am glad that you are here talking about it. Talk, talk, talk and then talk some more. I agree if we want to really die we would succeed ( if we're lucky). I know no matter what anyone says or thinks at the time when we're ready nothing else matters. Since my last attempt (which I thaught there would be no way I would survive) I learned that no matter what way you attempt to kill your self there is always that chance you will survive. The chance may be slim but do you want to take that chance and be the one who lives in who knows what condition? Think about it. I am so grateful and I believe it was only by the grace of God that just as I was getting ready to follow through, a voice; one that I had never heard before loud and very clear and very strong and sure said, "What if you live?" This clarity came in my thaughts and for a moment it was like watching a movie of what was going to happen, I could see the damage it was going to do (some how knew with no doubt) and living like that was not what I wanted for sure. I was able to call mental health center for help and was placed in the hospital. There are ways that you are more apt to succeed but since that time I have heard more about those who have survived those so called sure fired ways to kill your self. I still get the thaughts but today I talk about them to my T because I do not want to get to that point of no return. It scares me more the thaught of living after attempting suicide then it does to actually die. I am grateful to have that fear and it gets me to talk to someone. I'm learning T can not be there 24/7 and will not be here forever either and that's where I need to make my support system bigger which is why I am here. So far being here has helped. Thank you all!