Darling T,

I'm trying so hard to not contact you.
Everything is falling apart again.
It's crushing.
I need you.
I miss you.
I wish I could text you.
You will be saddened that I didn't.
I don't want to bother you.
I want to be invisible.
I want to be strong enough to stand up for myself.
I want to be happy.
I want to curl up in a hole in the ground,
and hide. Forever.
I can't do this anymore.
Why am I resisting when I know I should reach out?
I'm not sure how I'm supposed to make it til Thursday....

EM