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Originally Posted by kaliope
hi morris
it is unfortunate that you had to witness this event. knowing it was a secret and liking this man probably somewhere within you made you feel kind of caught in the middle between your parents. he was a positive experience for you, but somehow you knew it was wrong, so how does a child seek resolution for that?and then any feelings for dad, knowing this secret, the hurt this would cause, causes more jeopardizing feelings for you. you were just put in a very bad place emotionally. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome
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Thanks, kaliope. I appreciate your insight.
I have had nightmares on and off about this for years. As I grew up, mostly off but lately I have had them again, including one particularly vivid one fairly recently.
It was a different dream than I usually have, though. In my dream I'm standing in the doorway of the bedroom in our home, and my mom and the guy are making very passionate love. They're so involved in what they are doing, they don't even notice I am there. They continue for what seems like quite a while and they orgasm, and then kiss intimately.
He puts her body in a different sexual position and she resists a bit, but quickly begins enjoying herself and they go at it again for a while. I remember wondering why the hell they don't notice I am standing right here, they don't seem to notice or care. He's quiet and focused, and she is just his sex object. Then I wake up.
This was different than other dreams I have had, as this one is in our family home (other times it's in something like the bungalow, or a neutral location), it's my folks' bedroom from when we grew up, and I'm not particularly hiding - I'm just there and they don't notice or care.
This one freaked me out more than normal as it was also more vivid than usual.