Hi, I'm glad you made it through that hospital experience. It doesn't sound fun. I think you'll get over it before too long. I also was very freaked out the first time I was on a psych ward. It seemed very surreal to me. Both times I was on seem surreal, actually, but at least the second time was my (desperate) choice. If I may ask, how did you get nicotine poisoning?

Eta: I don't mean to minimize what you went through when I say I think you'll get over it. My experience was very frightening and really shook me up but I was OK after a couple of months, as far as that goes anyway. I wish you good luck.