Thanks for sharing your update, sad queen. I'm an older person. I'm pretty-much reclusive by choice. Almost all of my contact with other people is here on PC. It sounds like you have some difficulty expressing the thoughts, or voices, that you experience. I know, from my own experience, how difficult it can be for me to express what's going on inside my head. More often than not, it just seems to end up sounding silly to me. So, in the end, I just tend to keep this stuff to myself... not that this is a good idea. It's just what I've come to. My best wishes to you...