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Originally Posted by newtus
my family doesnt understand my everyday struggle with psychosis. its sad. i struggle every single day. i wish they did. i think its because i hide it. i even hide it from my therapist. why? i want people to think im stronger than my mental illness. i dont want them to think it has a hold on me. yet it does.
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I struggle every day too. I can't really hide it, but I do hide my delusions a lot of the time, even from my pdoc sometimes. It sounds ludicrous when I tell someone I am always followed and I am filmed constantly by four people who try to protect me from snipers.
Everyone around me knows it has a hold on me but not everyone knows precisely how.
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the world is too loud
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder Depressive Type, PTSD, and Agoraphobia.
Current meds: 30 mg Haldol, 10 mg Lexapro, 100 mg Lamictal, 0.5 mg Klonopin PRN
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