ive been with him for almost 3 years now. During the first year everything was great but after that there was alot of pain and hurt involve.We're in a long distance relationship and i got to see him only twice. It all started wit me lying to him bout my past because i was afraid he would leave me when i was so in love with him but i told him bout it and he accepted me but there was still things i didnt tell him which i thght wasnt imp. Then it was the first meeting he came to meet me. Everything went great in the begining but after sometime he started noticing tat i was looking at guys. He cried begged me to stop but i couldnt because it was so diff to stop. Then he went back home and it was online again. I begged him not to leave me and told him I would change and he didnt leave me. But then i cybered wit someone because i thought he was seeing someone else there(I know i shouldnt but i din knw it was wrong).I told him and he forgive me. Then he came to meet me again and everything was perfect this time.We were so much in love and we got married.He applied for job here and he got it but he had to go back to get his visa. Thats when everything started falling apart. He went back gone to the police station to get a police clearance cert and thats when they caught him for something he never did. He was in lock up, beaten for ten days and they took his passport. Then he was bailed out and we met online again. He started a new job and we hardly see each other now. Im not sure if i still love him anymore. The truth is im not even sure of my own feelings because i knw hes not in love wit me like he used to be. Maybe everythin will be ok once v meet but that is not going to happen anytime soon. I really duno wat to do anymore. How do I find out what I really want and how do I knw if i still love him and want him in my life? Has anyone felt like this? Can anyone help me?Any advice would be great.