Thanks everybody. So glad I can share stuff here.

As for my friends here at home (IRL), I don't feel like I can confide in anyone. One of my friends left me two "where are you" phone messages earlier today, but I don't feel like I can talk to her or anyone else here. Part of me wants to tell my ex he's insensitive for not giving me some warning, but I don't want to be a whiny immature baby about everything either. It's probably just better for me to be uninvolved with anyone who knows anything about my ex or has anything to do with my old life. That may be hard to explain to the friend who left me the phone messages. So far I'm procrastinating. I sort of hope she guesses how upset I am. I don't know why though. My whole life has to change. Job, friends, everything. I've even considered moving away to a different city. The real reason I don't is because therapy is so helpful right now, and so I don't want to leave my therapist. Really that's my only reason for staying here. Sad eh?

Sidony