Thank you both!
I am surrounded by a beautiful, loving family that is mostly supportive. However, I am mostly alone, as it seems. I am at home with only my 2 year old all day every week day until I pick up my kids, niece, and nephews from school. They just play together and don't mind me. Then, my husband comes home exhausted from work and retreats to the basement alone. Lately, his back has been bothering him so he's been sleeping downstairs alone. On the weekends (every weekend just about for the past few months), he has my 17 year old nephew spend the night both nights to help him ackomlish things. They keep to themselves, leaving me alone and usually on the couch all day Saturday too. Then Sundays we go to my mom and dad's house. That's the only day I get to spend quality time with anyone it seems. I almost kept my 5 year old son home from kindergarten today to snuggle with me all day. How terrible is that! But, oh woe is me, right?
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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