im on a temporary high because im getting some new ratties in a few days, and im very proud of myself for being sober for a week straight (a record in my books). and i know that as soon as thats over and done with and i have my rats..

*SPLAT*

if there's any other way to decribe having shitting busted emotions let me know..

AAAARGH its so stupid and now im getting angry. i wanna be normal! whatever normal is! sick of not wanting to wake up, and when i do, im sick of not wanting to move.

AND NOW IM PISSED OFF BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW LONG MY SOBER RUN WILL LAST AND THATS %#@&#! BECAUSE IM SICK OF THE FREAKING WITHDRAWALS ETC ETC SO ON AND BLOODY FORTH

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR